how great the father's love for you

Right now, I'm sitting in my dorm room and all I want to do is run and scream and hit things because my heart hurts so bad for you right now. What is going on with you? What happened to flip your switch...again? Why won't you talk it out with me? What turned you away? I mean it makes complete and total sense why you are the way you are but it ticks me off so much because I know it's not your fault. But at some point, you have to make the change. You have to wake up one day and decide that you're not going to live that way anymore. You're not going to punch people in the face; you're not going to cuss them out for no reason; you're going to stay in school. People have chosen to put their lives, jobs and families on the line for you; wake up and change your attitude at least. I want you to do well in life. I want you to succeed. But honestly, what I want doesn't matter. You have to want it. Right now, you don't and that sucks to suck. You're headed down a path that will only lead to jail at the least and death at the worst. It hurts so much to think that one day I might one day be visiting you in jail and attending your funeral and ugh now i'm crying. Why don't you see the potential that we all see in you? You are such a beautiful masterpiece made by the Father? He knit you together before your mama knew it. He knew you were gonna have to go through hell before you were 4. He knew you would get kicked out of so many schools before even high school. He knows you! I am less than a speck in comparison to how much He loves you and I wish you understood that...