sometimes

i want to stop paddling, jump out of the boat, and swim away...but i can't. I try to swim, run, anything to get away...but i can't. Why damnit? Why? God, i'm tired of this childish play. I'm tired of this game. Can we play a different one now? I'm tired of making the same move over and over again, only to fall down the ladder and have to start all over again. All in all, i'm just tired...i'm worn out and exhausted and out of ideas. I need you to carry me through this because i've tried to run on my own, and i keep falling flat on my face...over and over again. Oh and it'd be nice to sleep every one in awhile and not just stare at the ceiling for hours upon hours. Mehneheh.