i don't know yet. was the pain worth it? were the emotions worth it? is it really going to help? do the words "trust me" and "it's not your fault" mean anything anymore? i just don't know. it's a scary feeling knowing that it's out. knowing that it's real. the nightmares were still there. is it going to help? was it the right decision? are these questions legit or from the devil? Hmmm...so many questions stinging my head like a bee on a finger at a snocone stand on a hot summer day!